October 25th…
the final day of this cycle…
unlike the previous years, i’m not caught up with anxiety or weighed down by petty concerns..and more importantly i don’t feel lonely anymore =)
suffice to say…everything is just as they should be…and i’m happy about it! i guess after everything i’ve been through the past of couple of months, i am now eagerly anticipating my new adventure…after a seemingly dark autumn and cold winter comes the great promise of spring =)
I got the chance to write down some thoughts about a new inspiration..well,it’s not really that new because i’ve felt this way for quite some time now…it’s not like the usual crush or admiration I felt before. Rarely do I get to like someone this much but I guess there’s just no reason for me not to admire this person - his soothing and calming presence, his intense yet gentle eyes, and the strength of his spirit, and his magnetic personality. Unlike the previous crushes I had in the past, this one is totally different.
It’s not the crazy kind of fleeting emotion that you know will just eventually die down nor the suffocating or nauseating type of emotion that clouds one’s judgement and I am so thankful because it just makes things a lot easier for me.
I don’t really have the sense that I want to possess this person nor do I have the urge to pursue a relationship with him ( not that I mind it of course…lolx) but only if time/destiny permits this to happens or dictates it to be that way. I have nothing against it if fate brings us together and we end up being more than just friends, but I choose not to meddle with the affairs of the Higher Power.
Whatever happens I am certain that I will continue to admire this person and I am content with this even if I am looking at him from a distance. Rest assured, that person should know that he can always count on me whenever he needs me…thank you for your presence in my life. I like him. I admire him. It’s as simple as that. Om shanti =)
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